“LOVE” why?

I can’t tell you how I feel,

When life is almost over, the affection makes his deal
For her who’s out of my reach
Her thoughts, haunt like a million leech.

Everywhere I see, I mistake for her,
Mind is a cursed magical philosopher,
Whatever I do, whatever I think,
her eyes, her face appear in a blink.

This time it’s different, like never before,
I see her, like I see the wonders of the world.
Cant believe, that one person can redefine,
The meaning of life; this complicated twine.

This phase is hard, a price it seems,
for all  success, all my dreams.
Yet I want her more than any
joy and pride, any entity.

I can’t tell her, yet hate I hide,
the feelings I have for the love of my life.
I don’t want anything, other than her,
But can I tell her? No, is the ans.
I don’t know what I can do now,
Am I in love, or am I just being a stupid clown?